I'm such an idiot, literally... I thought i was going into hospital on Tuesday and im not, im going in on Wednesday! Seriously messing my days up, cant believe its coming closer so quickly.
HEY GUYS ITS 7:36 ON A SUNDAY AFTERNOOOOOOOOON !!
I havent had the best day, on tops ive had about 12 tachy's and theyre getting annoying, today ive been monitoring my palpitations on a doppler, that mums to be use (ash gave me hers), and its weird to see my heart beat go from resting (sort of) at about 80 to go to 160-170 in the matter of about 3-4 minutes. It scares me tbh, and because its so quick its weird feeling and i do this weird breathing thing to make it go away, i dont know how it works but it does. I used to have to use a glove, and blow into it like its a DUI test until it goes away... But its tiring me out majorly, because its so quick here and gone its making my body go OMG SHOULD I WORK HARDER NOW OR DO I JUST STAY NORMAL. i still dont think my body is completely educated on how my heart works, and now weve realised im exactly like a black bird. Their wings move really fast, but they move really slow... My heart moves really fast, but i move really slow...
Ive been waking up at 6ish every morning with the first tachy of the day, and thats pretty annoying cause half the time it takes me a while to go back to sleep. Irritating as fuck!! Then i get back to sleep about 8 and wake up at about half 9 again, so im not really sleeping well at all... i should be smart and start going to bed earlier but i dont lol, obviously my advice to other people doesnt work on myself.
BUT ANYWAY.... my day today has been boring tbh, i got up this morning, and me and me mam was going to make a pie but we ended up not doing it cause we were both so tired. Instead i moved the xbox into the living room to play some games, but then i played like 10 minutes and i couldnt be bothered to carry on.. so i turned that off, so i turned to netflix, and i wanted to put AHS on but i didnt because again i couldnt be bothered, but i found another film...
Gothika! Halle Berry and ROBERT DOWNEY JR.. mmmmmmm!
My reaction was basically WHAT THE HELL... was so confused on what the story was but it was amazing! basically it began with Halle Berry being a psychiatrist and shes dealing with a patient who says she is being raped by the devil (i know pretty creepy) but yeah so that was one of her patients... and all of a sudden it went from one extreme to another!!! She found a girl on the way home, in the rain, and she bursts into flames and transfers into Halle Berrys body... anyway not going to explain the whole thing... Halle berry's husband run the institute, and she killed him (but being possessed by the girl not her actually doing it) and then she found out later on that he was raping and killing patients in the institute in a barn that they used to go on holiday to, and it was just so messed up, this ghost was forcing her to go and find out the ghosts story! it was amazing... these sort of films make me believe that that sort of stuff is out of there... and then we watched the AMAZING film stigmata!! absolutely love that film because its about demonology!! one of my favorite subjects...
Demonology is the study of demons and the devil, but the thing is you have to know your religious studies to understand demonology, but i absolutely LOVE the subject, its so bloody interesting!!!! i wish there was a study here that i could do, but its only in america and it costs SHIT loads of money to do online! i also love Crimonology, Criminal Forensics, and Greek mythology, lol i have a weird range of studies id love to do!!
>>I wish i did separate science so i could do it in AS and go to uni to do Criminal Psychology and Forensics, but i screwed that up in tewkesbury lol! << AND ANYWAY! so yeah i love that film!
I havent done anything else really...
BUT i do have something to rant about... my brothers fiance ash wrote a blog the other day, and yes i am having a NEPHEW which is so cool, but ill tell the story now before the rant..
Ash had a scan at 20 odd weeks and found out that archie (Nephews name) has a problem with his heart (i know convenient right) talking about my heart i just had another tachy.. TACHY NUMBER 13!!! >> anyway, arch was diagnosed a couple of days after with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome, and some small narrowing of an arch on the heart... So everything ash has been thinking about is being as good as a parent as she can to Arch as she can.
SO, on her blog she said she wanted to be the 'perfect parent' for arch! and thats understandable, anyone who finds out theres something wrong with their unborn child they want to do the UPMOST best for him! and thats perfectly fine to be honest..
Ash posted it on her facebook to get some people to read it, which is what ive been doing... and then people decided to fucking comment on it saying 'no one is a perfect parent' ?
well i went from naught to 360 literally! i got so angry, when your a young parent which both my brother and ash are, they get scared from the fact theyve found out somethings wrong with my nephew, as me and my family and ashs family have... But for fucking people who dont even understand whats going on to comment saying 'no ones a perfect parent' well EXCUSE ME...
ash and ciar have every right mind to be a perfect parent to my nephew! and btw if you havent noticed its a blog where you can express yourself with no one having their stupid opinions on it, not a facebook status..
What matters is that Ash and Ciaran want to be parents that are perfect for archie, not the other way round, he will get so much love and care from the family around him but ash and ciar will be amazing parents! as ciar has helped me through so much with my heart, and has ALWAYS always been there... so i cant imagine what hes going to be like with his own son, yeah its going to be hard but theyll get through it and the specialists nowadays are brilliant with what they can do..
What really matters, is family, family is what matters, family is the root of the tree of life, no matter what happens to you you always ALWAYS come back to family, yeah i have problems with family, everyone does, but family always has your back no matter what.. i cant imagine my life without my mum, shes been a rock to all of us, and all of my friends also! alot my friends can probably remember the times shes been there through TEEN PREGNANCY SCARES lol! She is genuinely amazing, and shes the strongest woman i know...
My grandparents were the same to my mum and uncles, and like i said life only gives you one chance, one chance to make a true living out of why youre here, so make it worth it by loving the people that love you back, and by giving that love and care to other whos need it. I love my family, and i have so much respect for people who grew up without the proper support there for them, i really do...
My favorite quote is >>A certain darkness is needed to see the stars<< and what that means is you have to go through some shit to see the importance in why life is worth it... and i think everyone in the world can happily say theyve been through enough to see how important and valuable life is.
sorry for the deep blog guys, way too long but wanting to explain the day and have a deep and meaningful rant about things..
STAY RAD mk xxxx
Sunday 29 June 2014
Saturday 28 June 2014
4 days till Bristol | cooking & old pictures! \m/
So today hasn't been great, my heart has had many flutters and I'm feeling major week but I'll be all good! Or should be at least lol, I've had 5-6 so far, feel like something's trying to break out of my chest!! It's a tough situation but have to get through it!
Done some therapy type things today like baking! Made some caramel shortcake although I kept trying to eat all the caramel out of the tin... 
It was pretty successful if I don't say so myself, mum did supervise me and kept an eye on me, although I did get flour ALL over me! I didn't mean to I just always rub my hands on my trousers without knowing!
Last night we also had a look at some old photographs my mums got in a blue bag, a few of them were hilarious, my brothers dressed up or me and my cousins.. Then I found this cute one of my grandma and grandad 
They look pretty cool, I used to love the fashion back then, it was so groovy with the big shirts and baggy trousers, i wish people still dressed like that instead of what some kids dress like now a days, but yeah this was when they were alive think before I was born maybe, I only met my grandad though but the stories everyone has told me about peg makes me think she's pretty awesome!
And today were gna go through the whole bag and sort it out into piles, I'm excited!
I've gotta say I do feel freaked out now that I'm off my meds, it does feel very unsafe and I hate to say it but I wish I was back on them! It just feels like he (my heart) can go whenever he likes, and it's kind of like waiting for the worst to happen but as the title says only four more days...
At this precise moment in time I'm watching this documentary about an ex army dude walking the length of the amazon (which is pretty damn long, I can't even walk a couple of metres let alone the amazon!) and what he's being out through living off the land is amazing! I mean I've watched bear grylls but he's doing it on purpose to show people what to do when they're in danger, but this dudes doing it with no extra camera team or anything ! It's unreal, I could never do it... That's physical and mental strength being questioned during a journey like that.. I'd love to be that adventurous but I don't think id last a day lol, he has to spend 28 months there!!! Insane..
Anyway again nothing interesting guys but I'll write something interesting soon!! Could someone give me some ideas to write about ?! Would really help!!!
STAY RAD mk xxxx
Friday 27 June 2014
5 days till bristol | Well havent i had an eventful day \m/
so glad you all enjoyed my last blog today, doing those questions i apologies now for the black writing, dont know why it did that, like i said in the thing i did it on my ipad... did i say that? im not actually sure, but yeah i did it on my ipad and copy and pasted some questions so the font probably changed it... SO SORRY!!!
So today has been successful! i got my book from the library today!! its about signs and symbols as you can see <<<<< it seems really interesting! ive always been interested in symbiotics! think Da Vinci would be proud of me lol. so yeah i got my book today and ive only read the introduction because its such a big book, i have it for 3 weeks but ill have to renew it and hopefully my criminology book is going to be ready before i go into hospital... although the nurses may think im a weirdo having a criminology and signs and symbols books, but then again i think theyll be freaked out with Bronson books, let alone teaching myself criminology!
But yeah, it teaches me the signs and symbols over the ages before christ, ani domini (or whatever) and some times during christ was there, it also teaches me some symbols from witchcraft and such. Tells me there origins and why they were made! its pretty interesting tbh!
Anyway apart from getting my book today, i was also told that my mum is off for 4 weeks again from work, shes got nerve damage from her arm, and its kind of sad because she has been of work for a while, and shes getting cabin fever i reckon! So yeah we found that out, but shes okay about it, i guess it has to happen for her to get better! but she needs to stop the gardening and cleaning the house otherwise she wont get fixed at all...
ANYWAY besides from that, i did some studying (of my symbols etc) and then ais decided to make a blog, so which is pretty good as shes going through a lot too, so its good for her to get everything out too... this is her blog >>>> Ais's blog!! but yeah so i helped her set up her blog which was pretty interesting, told her not to put everything on it all at once lol!!
Then i met up with lewis about 6 at the pub and he had a couple of pints and i had a few drinks, which was nice just to sit in the sun (what was left of it) and chat, it was really lovely actually. I havent seen him all week and its lovely to catch up outside instead of indoors where we usually are. i really have missed him, i miss him especially when alot happens during my week and hes had his first week at work! which is nice, finally he has a job that isnt on agency seen as they messed him over!
Apart from that thats all my day has really been to be honest! i havent really got alot to say today, i have been okay today, but i did some walking and it did damage me a little, i mean my heart kind of went 'HELLO IM STILL HERE WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT' so i think he wants me to chill a little and not do too much lol! I also have a bruise coming up where that bloody nurse did the echo on my chest! she dug in like she was trying to find some buried bloody treasure, digging into the middle of my front rib (which is sensitive anyway!) and then she moved to under my boobie and to the side and i woke up this morning and it bloody killed!
But yeah apart from those two things ive been all good! Just chilling now having a drink with lew as hes discovered he enjoys rum just like my mother! which is an awful combination in a way lol... its all good though cause hes having a good time.
Hope everyones good! 370 odd people reading my blog! amazing, and people from around the country is crazy as hell. lovely to see people are interested in my blabbering!
STAY RAD mk xxx
Questions to keep me busy! | \m/
Hey guys so I said yesterday with my last blog that I was gna do some questions to pass the time, it may be long but hey oh you're either interested or not! I have opinion on things and if that's a problem then I'm sorry but my opinion lol, doesn't necessarily have to matter!
Sorry for it being so long! Hope ur all good xoxo
Get Curious!
1:Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
Closed because I feel safer, is that weird?
2:Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
Umm I haven't stayed in a hotel long enough to do so! Why do people do that anyway?
3:Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
Omg this is a question for my brothers and his friends... Many times back in the day my brother ciar and his friends always used to go on the piss... On the wall home they'd bring a sign every time for my mum lol.. It started off with small signs such as 40 or whatever but then there was the medieval sign lmfao, I couldn't handle it... Hilarious though! This was about 5-6 years back
4:Do you always smile for pictures?
Um, not really I hate my teeth they have a weird sort of dent in the front, and aren't straight so I kind of pout smile!
5:Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
No lmao I rarely walk, I can never be bothered
6:What is your Song of the week?
Carry on my wayward son is my song of every week of my life *fangirling*
7:What do you drink with dinner?
Usually some juice, but I don't really drink with dinner am I supposed to?
8:What is your favorite food?
Hmmmm, pasta... Everybody knows that, I might as well be Italian
9:Which movie could you watch over and over and still love?
Probably frozen, or any Disney film
10:Last person you kissed/kissed you?
Lewis lol
11:Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
No god no lol! I think I tried it once, but that epicly failed...I'm not calm enough apparently
12:Can you cry on command?
No lol, it hurts my face
13:Are you loyal?
Yes of corse
14:When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
Um probably to lewis on his birthday (ha GAAAAAYYY)
15:Favorite kind of sandwich?
Probably a cheese and ham baguette or toaster
16:Best thing to eat for breakfast?
Probably weetabix or scrambled egg
17:What is your usual bedtime?
Usually like 12 Cus I get distracted by YouTube
18:Are you lazy?
Can be sometimes
19:How many languages can you speak?
One, but I wish I could speak Latin :(
20:Are you stubborn?
I definitely can be! Especially when it's to do with something important
21:Are you afraid of heights?
Um, sometimes usually I'm not.. When we went to Ireland on a Holiday I went on the carrickerreid rope bridge, and it was terrifying.. Doesn't help it's just a plank of bloody wood
22:Do you sing in the shower?
Yes lol, I don't mean to but it kind of happens, or I lip sync..so glad there is a lock
23:Do you think musicals are cheesy?
No I love the Disney musicals!!!!
24:Is Christmas stressful?
Yes sometimes, I can't choose what to get!
25:Ever eat a pierogi?
What the hell is that
26:Favorite type of fruit pie?
Apple mmmmmm
27:Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
A tTtoo artist (yes I wanted to be a tattoo artist when I was a kid) I loved drawing so much, and I watched the shows too all the time
28:What do you wear to bed?
My birthday suit
29:Who would you like to see in concert?
Definitely DEFINITELY BMTH, or bullet
30:What was the last concert you saw?
Pink like 4-5 years ago
31:Tea or coffee?
Tea, but usually iced tea, I've gone off hot drinks :(
32:Do you want to get married?
Yeah at some point!
33:Do you want kids?
Yeah of corse, if I get fixed lol
34:What’s your favorite part about today so far?
Um, doing nothing lol, going to the library in a bit!
35:What are you doing tomorrow?
Seeing my feends before my operation!
36:What are you doing next week?
Having an operation lol I'm so boring gawsh!
37:Have you ever tried sushi? (Did you like it?)
No I haven't and I never will!
38:How do you like your steak cooked?
I don't eat steak, am I weird?
39:What do you like least about yourself?
Probably the fact I like food so much
40:Who’s your best / closest friend?
My momma, becky, jess and MA NIGGA
41:Who do you trust with your secrets?
Lewis and my mum
42:Which friend would you go to in an emergency?
Probably jess cause she's the most sensible out of all of us
43:What was the last text you sent?
It was to Lew saying have a good shift!
44:Does anyone hate you?
I feel a lot of people probably hate me but hey ho!!
45:How did you meet your spouse / girlfriend / boyfriend?
On msn, lmfao!! And I didn't get catfished ;)
46:Would you rather live in the countryside or in the city?
Country definitely, always reminds me of Ireland!
47:Ever had a detention?
Yes, many... Woo go being an asshole in school!
48:Which swear word do you use the most?
Fuck mostly, fuck, fucking... Shit I say a lot as well
49:Ever cried at school?
Yeah many of time lol!
50:Who is the most intelligent person you know?
Probably jess again, she's smart as fuck
Here's a few serious ones ;) again sorry for it being so long but I'm BORED
1:Close your eyes and think of five things that make you smile when you think about them. What are they?
lewis, my family, food, my books, my dog... Yeah that's five
2:If your house was on fire and you had sixty seconds to leave, what would you take with you?
My phone, iPad and charger... And then some of my favourite books... All my books if I could :(
3:When you're alone in the middle of the night and you can't quite get to sleep, what do you think about? "Going to sleep" doesn't count.
I kind of think of how my life is going, is it going well? Is it not? At the moment I'm thinking about going under anaesthetic next week before I go to sleep
4:What is love to you?
Love is when you care so much about someone, and they care back
5:What is the opposite of love?
I wouldn't say hatred but in some sort of way yeah, hate is a strong word, the same as love but I don't think they're opposites, you can hate someone that you have to love.
6:Is it possible to love someone if you don't love yourself?
I don't honk so, if you love someone and they love you back, and they show that they love you, it's just enough for you to be happy with yourself knowing they love you for who you are
7:Do you believe mutual attraction based on mutual hatred is possible?
I don't even know what that means, too many words
8:Is it better to have something amazing and lose it or to never have had it to begin with?
I had something amazing and lost it, but I got it back... I think you should always give things a try because you may never get the chance to later on in life
9:Do you focus more on the past, the present, or the future?
The present, I never think of the future, it worries me too much
10:Do you judge people for what they wear or how they express themselves?
Oh god no lol. I love it when people are so open! So full of life
11:Do you believe in individuals over generalisations?
Again... Too many words
12:When you're very scared or worried, what do you think about or do to help you feel better?
My mums still got my back
13:How do you feel about what happens after death?
I don't think when you die you die, I reckon it depends on how you die... And what you want to do with your spirit, if you want to be put to rest and just leave then the spirits will do so, but if you have unfinished business, or you want to keep an eye on people you love then do so too! It's how strong your spirit is and what YOU want to do with it
14:Would you rather live a hedonistic life full of good things that make you feel good even if they're bad for you, or a healthy life centered around treating your body like a sacred temple and watching your health as closely as possible? Or do you not care either way?
I'm not really fussed
15:Do you think you can tell a lot about a person from the way they express themselves or answer questions like these?
Yeah I think so, you can't really tell through questions though unless you meet them!
16:Do you have any special or magical memories you'll always have with you?
Probably that time I tried to teach myself how to skate and crashed into a lampost (I still have the scar) or when me my brothers and my cousins are doing row row row your boat.. Or any memory with my grandad
17:How would you define yourself, without saying your name or giving a physical description of yourself or your obvious personality?
Strong but weak
18:When do you feel truly at peace?
When I'm in the bath with a book!
19:Do you like having your worldview or opinions challenged or questioned?
Yeah I do enjoy it. I love writing essays or paragraphs about things!
20:Do you believe happiness can exist without sadness?
Yeah truly, I think happiness can exist at one point without sadness, but it'll always come back to sadness
21:Is there a reason for existence?
God that's a major question... Probably,
22:Do you think the world existed before you did?
I'm not that important lol! Corse I think it did
23:Do you believe people need breaks from each other, even if they're deeply in love?
Yeah I think so, especially if your both going through a lot with each other or your going through separate things!,
24:What do you find most beautiful in people?
Their personalities, and when they are open and don't care what people think!
25:Do you take questions like these literally or pick up on what they really mean?
I mean I don't take the Seriously but I do enjoy questions!
So anyway! I'll be doing y daily post at about 6-7 like I usually do! I hope you guys have enjoyed reading such a long bloody thing... If you even read it! Amazing that so many people are reading my stuff now! If there's anything people want my opinion on id love to help! Leave a comment!
Speak to you guys later! STAY RAD mk xxxxx
Thursday 26 June 2014
6 days till bristol | what happened at pre-op! \m/
I went for my pre op today as you guys know, nothing interesting happened just the normal tests such as ECG, echo and height and weight! All's good! also had a wee chat with the doctor about whats going to happen and stuff and having a chat about how im feeling towards it, im stopping my tablets tomorrow which will probably have an effect on alot of things such as going out for walks and stuff the next couple of days but hey ho all part and parcel of what i have to deal with!!
I do enjoy going to bristol, the people there are so nice and they really have a welcoming personality and are absolutely great with the kids there!!
The thing that upsets me is seeing all the kids going through things they dont understand, when im old enough to understand it all! in all my time going to Bristol there have been babies as young as 4 months old in their with pace makers or hooked up to machines, and in a way i feel a bit better because i can deal with the pain and i know whats happening to me, when those babies have no idea!
The thing i love as well, is that the kids have so much life in them no matter what they are going through, they are still giggling running about and getting into trouble, the thing i hate is seeing the parents so tired and run down by what theyre going through. I just wanted to hug most of the mums today with the young kids, but obviously that isnt acceptable lol.. My mums alot like them in a way but because im older she has to act strong for me to be okay, i appreciate my mum alot for how much shes gone through with me and i know i can be a pain in the arse with it all but i know shell always have my back!
I met this nice spanish lady today who did my ECG, and she was hilarious!! for some reason i couldnt relax for the machine to take my ECG properly, and i felt majorly bad because i kept tensing up, i couldnt help it i just dont do well sitting still or not talking lol! we eventually got there though whilst i was being distracted by bright colours of the drawings on the wall...
I enjoy going in because in the clinic it feels like a community and ever patient that walks in you know their story just by looking at them, and the hurt you see graved into their face, but everyone seems to be on good form especially with the hilarious nurses! its the same on the ward, another kids helper nurse called Michelle asked if i wanted to take a tour of the ward today, and i was like no its okay i could probably do the tour myself, she definitely understood what i meant lol!
I have a girl younger than me going in before me on wednesday, and she seemed okay but scatty/happy to try and keep her mind off it, i completely understood how she felt, didnt want to get myself involved though as itll be the same day as me, and i didnt want to scare or belittle her, she was alot younger than me maybe 14, but she seemed lovely! and i hope she is okay during the operation!
Like i said i do love going into the hospital, its the operation i hate, i mean i dont mind it actually, its over pretty quickly although it would of been a long time.. i hate the going under, i hate the aneasthetic, its just awful the though that you may not even wake up. i know its horrible to think that way but when your going through something as serious as heart or major organ operation you think that way.
BUT HEY HO! im enjoying life right now :) and its the same operation as every other last time (2007,2011,2012,2013 and now..... 2014!!!) so i shouldnt worry too much!!
Anyway! SO many people read my blog yesterday! glad people are interested... i also have a page on facebook Megan kate Blogger! FB <<< if people could like it! and maybe message or post things theyd want me to write about! in the next couple of hours ill be answering some questions that people have put on tumblr, just to pass the time lol!!
Hope everybody is GOOOOOD:) MK xxx
Wednesday 25 June 2014
7 days till bristol | update on how im doing !! \m/
Anotha day anotha dolla << as you can see i'm so mainstream in my picture..
Its 6:57pm on a Wednesday afternooooon, and its quite sunny outside surprisingly.
I had a friend who i havent spent time with in AGES stay over last night, and it was such a lovely evening! we had noodles for tea, and watched this documentary called 'Murdered by my Boyfriend' dont
I agree that this program needed to be shown, i mean it gives so much awareness of people under the same abuse whether its a man or a woman, in my opinion the show should of gone further than just one episode! fair play to the person who made the episode had to read the case study of that particular story, which could cause so much sadness in that person. But someone has to be the good guy and raise awareness on this sort of thing...
a lot of people have an opinion on it being just about women getting abused but its not ladies and gents, its men too and i fully agree that men being abused should be raised aswell as women, alot of people find it disgusting and degrading that a man could hit a women, but some people say that women hitting men is fine because they cant do that much damage? Domestic abuse isnt just about the physical side of things, its the mental, and what effect the opposite person has mentally on their other half, people can get pretty messed up over constant hurt of feelings.
Anyway apart from that, we watched that then went to bed, then today we both went into town for a few bits and bobs! I bought some hair dye for the first time, and mum did some food shopping and shampoo shopping etc. Unfortunately my friend had to go to work at 5'oclock:( so i had the rest of the day to me and my mum:)
After that, i watched the first episode of the new series im watching American Horror Story (AHS), because i finished Orange Is The New Black (OITNB), i enjoyed it even though it was really creepy and extremely fucked up and weird, but ill be happy enough to carry on watching it.
I ALSO discovered how much of a bloody rip off the PC version of Elder Scrolls is!!! its absolutely ridiculous, i was about to download it onto my computer, when i discovered that i could have a 30 day free trial... Apparently, you cant have a 30 day trial without putting your billing information in and already ordering a subscription!! and dont even get me started about the subscriptions, they are absolutely ridiculous... try to make it seem like its so damn cheap but once you work it out on a calculator it isnt at all!! Apart from that ive had a pretty good day...
Tomorrow is my pre-op for my operation, which basically means i go in get a load of tests done and talk to my doc about my op and whats going downnnn! This means a 6:30 wake up call, a 7:15 leave onto a heavy trafficed motorway and a 8:45 appointment which will probably last about 15 minutes. I am worried to see what doc cock has to say, but other than that im okay... i mean i cant get any worse can i lol?
Anyway, so glad to see ive had 50 odd people looking at my blog, really helps to know that people enjoy reading me blabbering on about my life! would be nice if people could comment aswell, let me know how your all doing and what youd like me to write about!!
All is well, MK! xxx
Tuesday 24 June 2014
8 days till Bristol | and info \m/
Hey guys sorry i haven't been updating recently from my blog before, introducing myself and all. Been a busy bee trying to sort out my suitcase etc and tidying up the garden..
Its 7:14pm on a tuesday, and at this precise time im sat on the sofa watching At Worlds End for the 100th time since it came out, my mum seems to think its a good film but ill always stick with the Shaun of the dead or Hot fuzz films.
I havent done much today apart from feel pretty crappy and also feel extremely tired. I helped mum with some gardening today as well, helped her to pull out some brambels and weeds, as she cant do it herself due to her damaged arm, she has tennis elbow and some other muscular problems.
The title of this blog is obviously 8 days till bristol, which means i have 8 days to get my shit into gear for my operation lol..
Obviously because im new on this alot of people dont know what i have and why im having an operation ill explain to you now!
(i want to explain everything to help people in the same position feel as though they are not alone whether they have the same thing i do or not)
Diagnoses and operations! | When and where!
At age 8, i was diagnosed with Wolff Parkinson White syndrome, it is a condition where... (if you dont want to read about me blabbering on in a way that doesnt even explain it, just click this link!) >>>> WPW syndrome!
Its to do with the electrical pathways in the heart, and i have abnormal pathways in my heart between my atria and the ventricles, meaning i have extra beats than everyone else by the electrical beat going through the heart going through the extra bits and going stir crazy basically haha! this causing palipitations in the heart (meaning the heart goes faster) so as the normal persons heart rate is between 60-100 mines like a newborn and is between 70-200 which is extreme when i say it like that!
Anyway i was diagnosed with it when i was eight as i was having a check up for an ear infection, unbelievably so the doctor then decided to drop the bombshell hat i need to see doctors/specialists in bristol, and from there onwards its kind of been the same.. Going to my local GP to check my medicine signs and going to bristol to see my main doc and having operations.
Throughout my operations (ive had 4, this is the 5th) things have popped up on the way, theyve discovered i have Supraventricular Tachycardia (again link)>>>SVT im not going to explain that because its too difficult lol, and then they discovered i had Atrioventricular Reentrant Tachycardia (again again link)>>> AVRT Which basically meant my heart was over working extremely hard, and it caused problems with breathing etc.. After my first operation i was given meds, and theyve rose the dosage majorly and it turns out im on the highest dosage of the meds for my heart (Flechanide 150mg twice a day, Atenalol 25mg twice a day).
SO ANYWAY alongside all that technical bollocks! this is my fifth operation, and last time it didnt go really that well so im hoping that it goes okay this time! My operation is radio ablation through little tiny wires that go into my groin into the main artery in my leg and up to my heart through the vein, its very clever actually...
but anyway yeah so in 8 days ill be having all of that done which is pretty interesting, thought id share it with you all because i obviously want to start a proper blog, and if you guys are interested you should know alot about me!!
Sorry for such a LONG post but thought id explain myself!
Hope things are good with everyone! MK xx
Its 7:14pm on a tuesday, and at this precise time im sat on the sofa watching At Worlds End for the 100th time since it came out, my mum seems to think its a good film but ill always stick with the Shaun of the dead or Hot fuzz films.
I havent done much today apart from feel pretty crappy and also feel extremely tired. I helped mum with some gardening today as well, helped her to pull out some brambels and weeds, as she cant do it herself due to her damaged arm, she has tennis elbow and some other muscular problems.
The title of this blog is obviously 8 days till bristol, which means i have 8 days to get my shit into gear for my operation lol..
Obviously because im new on this alot of people dont know what i have and why im having an operation ill explain to you now!
(i want to explain everything to help people in the same position feel as though they are not alone whether they have the same thing i do or not)
Diagnoses and operations! | When and where!
At age 8, i was diagnosed with Wolff Parkinson White syndrome, it is a condition where... (if you dont want to read about me blabbering on in a way that doesnt even explain it, just click this link!) >>>> WPW syndrome!
Its to do with the electrical pathways in the heart, and i have abnormal pathways in my heart between my atria and the ventricles, meaning i have extra beats than everyone else by the electrical beat going through the heart going through the extra bits and going stir crazy basically haha! this causing palipitations in the heart (meaning the heart goes faster) so as the normal persons heart rate is between 60-100 mines like a newborn and is between 70-200 which is extreme when i say it like that!
Anyway i was diagnosed with it when i was eight as i was having a check up for an ear infection, unbelievably so the doctor then decided to drop the bombshell hat i need to see doctors/specialists in bristol, and from there onwards its kind of been the same.. Going to my local GP to check my medicine signs and going to bristol to see my main doc and having operations.
Throughout my operations (ive had 4, this is the 5th) things have popped up on the way, theyve discovered i have Supraventricular Tachycardia (again link)>>>SVT im not going to explain that because its too difficult lol, and then they discovered i had Atrioventricular Reentrant Tachycardia (again again link)>>> AVRT Which basically meant my heart was over working extremely hard, and it caused problems with breathing etc.. After my first operation i was given meds, and theyve rose the dosage majorly and it turns out im on the highest dosage of the meds for my heart (Flechanide 150mg twice a day, Atenalol 25mg twice a day).
SO ANYWAY alongside all that technical bollocks! this is my fifth operation, and last time it didnt go really that well so im hoping that it goes okay this time! My operation is radio ablation through little tiny wires that go into my groin into the main artery in my leg and up to my heart through the vein, its very clever actually...
but anyway yeah so in 8 days ill be having all of that done which is pretty interesting, thought id share it with you all because i obviously want to start a proper blog, and if you guys are interested you should know alot about me!!
Sorry for such a LONG post but thought id explain myself!
Hope things are good with everyone! MK xx
Thursday 19 June 2014
Start at the beginning.
Hello! This is surprisingly strange knowing that this is my first blog, I'm definitely excited to see where it takes me though. Whether it's far or not lol!
My name is Megan Katherine McMillan (fully when I'm in trouble) but you guys can call me by meg or Megan Kate :)
I am new here as I said before and by all accounts I have no clue what I'm doing!
I'm a new YouTuber aswell as over the next few weeks I'll be doing videos etc.
But I also wanted to create a blog to kind of tell people about the day I'm having whether the video blog will be on here or on YouTube either way!
I'm a very complex yet interesting lady and I assure you I'm not nasty lol! But people make comments about me throughout my life and I just tend not to listen.
Over the course of the next few days I'll be doing up to date written blogs, although my videos will vary on youtube!
So yeah I'll do another blog tomorrow kind of examining a bit more about myself. But so nice to finally have a space to write!
Thank you!
MK xx
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